Friday, April 30, 2010

Hopeful

I feel so incredibly hopeful right now. I'm aware that my feelings could change at any given moment, but for today, for right now, I'm going to enjoy it.

The IUI went well. Dr. W said there are three good eggs on the right side. Dr. W was so excited and hopeful, and, naturally, that gave me a little more hope too. I'll start the Crinone on May 4 and have the option of coming in for a blood test or taking a home pregnancy test on May 14.


Hope, like the gleaming taper's light,
Adorns and cheers our way;
And still, as darker grows the night,
Emits a brighter ray.
--Oliver Goldsmith

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Suitable Results

I went back to REACH this morning for a second round of blood work. This time the results suited Dr. W. I took the Ovidrel injection this evening and will return to REACH tomorrow for more blood work (really, how much can they take before I run out?) and the IUI. We're hoping and praying that we'll (finally) get our miracle this month. Please keep us in your prayers!



Wednesday, April 28, 2010

?

I went to REACH this morning for labs and an ultrasound. There's one follicle on the left (20) and several on the right (20, 15, a couple of 10s). Usually, after the day 12 ultrasound and blood work, Dr. W tells me to take the Ovidrel injection that night. This time, however, he wanted to wait one more day. I'm supposed to go back tomorrow morning for labs and then wait for instructions. It's worrisome that the blood work wasn't suitable today, but I have complete confidence in Dr. W and his judgment. We'll see what happens tomorrow morning.





Tuesday, April 27, 2010

NIAW

I'm behind on posts. (Again.) Here's a quick update: I went to REACH on Sunday morning for labs and an ultrasound. The results from both were fine. The ultrasound showed several follicles, the biggest ones (measuring 12 and 15) are on the right side. Yay! Hopefully we'll have good results this month. I was instructed to take Bravelle injections for three more days and return to REACH on Wednesday morning for another ultrasound and more lab work.

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Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds,
because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:2-3

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

One More Time

I put off writing a post about the results of Thursday's test because, like my mom always says, if you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all. And I didn't have anything nice to say. So rather than have you read my pity party of a post, I just didn't write.

I'm much better now, so I can write again. Sunday was my last bitter day. Monday was my day 3 appointment at REACH, and with it came renewed hope. I started the letrozole on Monday night and will start injections tonight. I have an appointment on Sunday morning at REACH for labs and an ultrasound. The results from those tests will determine if I need more injections and when we'll do the IUI.

So....here we go again.


When the world says, "Give up,"
hope whispers, "Try it one more time."



Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Nervous

The 2WW is almost over. I've tried to push it to the back of my mind, but today I'm so nervous. While I'm eager to know, I'm also terrified of the answer.

This is a terribly short post, but it's all I have right now.

Cast all your anxiety on him because He cares for you.
--1 Peter 5:7





Friday, April 2, 2010

Now We Wait

I haven't updated in a few days, so we'll backtrack a little.

The ultrasound on Wednesday showed that I had at least two "good" follicles. One measured 23, the other 21. That was good enough for Dr. W. He instructed me to take the Ovidrel injection on Wednesday night and scheduled the IUI for Friday.

Until then, I hadn't really been nervous about anything. After we scheduled the IUI, though, all the familiar anxiety came flooding back. Are those follicles good enough? Are we wasting our money? Should we wait another month? The nurse at REACH, Lord love her, is always so patient with me. I spent a long time talking with her on Wednesday afternoon, she spoke with Dr. W, and then announced that they were willing to bet our money on this month. Wow. What a statement. The nurse told me that it was not Dr. W's turn to work a holiday, so the IUI would be done by another doctor. I've seen all of the doctors at REACH, and I liked the one she named as the doctor for Friday. I was disappointed it wouldn't be Dr. W, but it was out of my control.

Yesterday was my (eek!) 26th birthday. 26. Unbelievable. I could have spent my day feeling sorry for myself. After all, I'm not exactly where I wanted to be in life at 26. I was pregnant last year on my birthday, and this should have been my first birthday as a mommy. But I didn't dwell on all of that, and I think that's really a testament to how far I've come in the recent months. I'm very proud of myself. I had a great birthday. After a good day at work (thanks to some fabulous coworkers), Bradley and I went out to dinner with friends.

Bradley and I both had to be at REACH at 7 this morning, then I had to go back at 11 for the IUI. Before we left I spent some time reading Psalm 86, and especially focused on verse 4: "Bring joy to your servant; for to you, O Lord, I lift up my soul." I thought it was fitting for a day like today. I was so nervous before the IUI--not about the procedure, really, but about the possibilities. I was so surprised when I walked in--and saw Dr. W! As he was saying hello, I was exclaiming, "I didn't think you were going to be here today!" I swear, I could have hugged him. All that nervousness melted away. I'm so much more comfortable with him. He knows where we've been, and he's been there every step of the way. He knows us. He had switched days with the other doctor. I can't even begin to explain how thrilled I was. I took him being there as a good sign. The IUI procedure went well. Of course, being the slightly OCD person I am, I asked Dr. W repeatedly to check the name on the vial before the procedure. He checked it, I checked it, the nurse checked it, we all signed papers saying we'd checked it, and then we repeated the checking process all over again. Since it was a holiday, the nurse wasn't his regular nurse, but it was my favorite one from the lab. It was a good experience all the way around, definitely much better than I had anticipated.

So now we wait. I'm supposed to begin taking the Crinone progesterone medication on April 6 and return to REACH on April 15 for a blood test. We're hoping and praying that this is a successful cycle. Please continue to pray for us!