Sunday, September 25, 2011

Dear Aniston

Dear Aniston,
Six months ago today, at 6:43 pm, you came into our lives with a huge yawn and a teeny tiny cry.  In that moment I found more joy than I had ever known before, and I thought my heart would burst with love for you.  We finally had you, the child we had prayed for for so long,  in our arms.  You brought us so much joy on that day, and you have filled our lives with joy every day since then.

The past six months have passed so quickly.  I want time to stop, just for a moment, so I can soak it all in.  You are changing by the day.  Your daddy and I looked at pictures yesterday from when you were first born.  You were so tiny!  You seemed so fragile.  I think back on that time and laugh.  Your daddy and I didn't have a clue what we were doing, and we were so scared of doing something wrong.  You have taught us both so much in the little time we've had together. 

I love you so, so much.  This love is like nothing I've ever experienced before.  My life has always been filled with love--for your daddy, for our family, for my friends--but the love I have for you is a different kind.  This love is fierce and protective.  It's the kind of love you that makes you cry when you think about just how much you love someone.  This love is deep, powerful, and never-ending.  I think you know how much you're loved, but I promise to keep telling you so you won't ever forget. 

You are so special, Aniston Louise.  You are everything that your daddy and I dreamed of and more.  We have been blessed beyond measure.

Happy half birthday, sweet girl.


Six Months!

Aniston's half-birthday was on September 25!

Weight:16lb 8oz--60th percentile (as of appointment on 10/4)

Height: 25.5 inches--50th percentile (as of appointment on 10/4)

Clothing Size:  3-6 months.

Diapers:  Size 2

Feeding:  Aniston is still eating six ounces of formula every three hours during the day.  Sometimes she'll go a little longer, but not often.  We've tried to offer her more formula during feedings, but she won't eat it.  We're still giving her frozen breastmilk here and there.  (I'm guilty of often choosing to mix a bottle of formula even though we still have plenty of breastmilk frozen.  It's just so much easier.)  Aniston absolutely loves food!  This month we've introduced sweet potatoes, green peas, peaches, and carrots.  We're following our pediatrician's guidelines and still only giving her small amounts, but she would like more.  She still loves oatmeal and bananas.  She did really well with carrots (much better than I expected) and has been doing a little better with green beans.  They're still not her favorite, but she tolerates them.  We haven't found anything that she just doesn't like at all--she'll even eat rice cereal now as long as we mix in some kind of fruit (usually peaches).  I'm glad that (so far) she's not a picky eater.
Hair/Eyes:  Aniston's eyes are blue.  Her hair is a light brown with a reddish tint. 

Sleep:  Aniston is still a great sleeper.  She has been going to bed around 8:30 and gets up around 7:30.  She usually takes two long naps during the day, and a couple of cat naps as well.

  --Being outside
  --Riding the golf cart with Great Mamaw Louise and Great Papaw Coy
  --Watching Lucy and Ethel
  --Her jumper
  --Toys that make noise

  --Diaper changes
  --Her swing
  --The carseat

Fun Stuff:   
--Aniston continues to blow raspberries....and thinks it's hilarious to do it with food in her mouth.
--Aniston rolled over for the first time on September 3!  She went from her back to her belly, which is supposedly the hardest way.  She still doesn't like to be on her tummy, though, so once she rolls over it's only a matter of time before she begins to cry.  We'll flip her back over, and then she'll do it all over again.  It's a tiring process, especially at 3:30 in the morning.  I'm sure she'll figure out how to roll from her belly to her back soon....or at least I hope so!
--Aniston started sitting up without help on September 17.  She looks so big when she's sitting up!

Mommy's Point of View:  What I've Learned in the First Six Months
--I'm capable of more love than I ever thought possible.  I only thought I knew love before--for Bradley, my family, my friends--but this kind of love surpasses all of  those.
--I'm usually a quiet, don't-rock-the-boat kind of person, especially around people I don't know.  I've learned that I can be very pushy and demanding when it comes to Aniston and her well-being, even if it means embarrassing myself a little.  (Like when a sick kid came and sat in the well waiting room at the children's clinic.)
--I've learned that being a mommy is a humbling experience.  I've changed a very poopy diaper (and clothes...sigh) in a restroom that didn't have a changing table.  I've left a restaurant with spit-up on my shirt and all the way down my pants. 
--I've learned that I am much stronger and more capable than I ever gave myself credit for.
--I've learned what real, true fear is.  When Aniston stopped breathing that day in April, I learned what it truly meant to be afraid.
--I've learned that long showers are a thing of the past.
--I've learned that it really is the little things in life that mean the most.
--I've learned to never say "I'll never...".
--I've learned that laundry with a baby never ends.
--I've learned that the simple things in life really do matter the most.