Thursday, November 29, 2012

November 30

Dear Peanut,

Tomorrow is November 30--the anniversary of your due date.  If things would have worked out like I thought  they should, we would be celebrating your third birthday. 

I think of you often.  As I watch your sister grow and change, I wonder what you would have been like.  Would your hair be light and curly like hers?  Would your eyes be blue?  Would you share the same giggle?  Would your eyes wrinkle the same way when you grin?  Would you have a dimple in your chin? 

My heart aches to know you.  You were, and still are, a part of me.  There will always be a hole in my heart that never quite heals, a completeness that I'll never know.  I know that's difficult for others to understand, but you were my child even though I never held you in my arms.  I will never forget seeing you for the first time on the ultrasound screen and watching the precious flicker of your heartbeat. 

You still have a box of things in our closet, and I imagine it will always be there.  Your pictures, a blanket, a bear, a lamb, cards of congratulations...and sympathy cards too.  Those are the things we have to remember you by.  We had so many hopes and dreams for you, and they were taken from us all too quickly.  You changed our lives forever.  You changed who your daddy and I are as individuals.  We haven't been the same since you, and, while that sometimes makes me sad, I wouldn't change it.  In your sweet life, you taught us so much.  We were blessed to be your parents, even though our time was much too short.

There are things in life I know we'll never understand, and losing you is one of those things. 

We love you.  We miss you.


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Catching Up: Thanksgiving

I've always loved Thanksgiving.  Maybe it's the fact that it's less stressful than Christmas--we only have one place to go and don't have to worry about finding the perfect gift for everyone.  Maybe it's that Thanksgiving is the start of the holiday season.  Maybe it's the turkey and dressing and Mamaw's pumpkin pie.  :) Whatever the reason, Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday.

This Thanksgiving was wonderful.  Of course, everything with Aniston is wonderful.  Even though holidays were great before, they're so much more special now.  We watched the parade together, then spent the afternoon getting ready for our Thanksgiving dinner.  Everyone comes to our house...even though my mom still does all the cooking.  It was so good! 

Aniston spent Thanksgiving night with Mamaw and Papaw so Bradley and I could go shopping.  We went both Thursday night and Friday morning, and got some great deals!  After lunch we picked Aniston up and headed to the mountains to get our Christmas tree.  The princess was super whiny and insisted on being carried everywhere, but we still had lots of fun. 

We had Thanksgiving with Bradley's family on Saturday.  We enjoyed spending time with everyone, and Aniston loved playing with her cousins. 

We decorated the tree and our house a little here and there as we had time over the weekend, and it was all finished by Sunday night.  Aniston loves the lights...and poking all of the ornaments.  Thankfully, we switched most of our ornaments to shatterproof last year.  :)

Monday, November 12, 2012

Getting Ready for Christmas: Holiday Food Ideas

I am SO EXCITED about Christmas this year!  My Christmas list is halfway finished already (whoohoo!) and I'm making plans and lists for decorations and craftiness.  I'm a firm believer in not decorating for Christmas before Thanksgiving, but there's nothing wrong with a little planning! ;)

Leslie is doing a Getting Ready for Christmas series this week, and I'm linking up!  Today is all about Christmas recipes, so here are a couple of my favorites.

Little Ham Biscuits with Poppy Seeds

These are by far my favorite Christmas pick-up!  Mamaw Louise makes them every Christmas Eve and I'm pretty sure I could eat the entire pan by myself. 
  • 2 packages Pepperidge Farm party rolls (mini size)
  • 8 oz sliced ham
  • 6 oz Swiss cheese
  • 1 stick margarine (melted)
  • 1 1/2 Tbs. poppy seeds
  • 1 1/2 Tbs. mustard
  • 1 t. onion flakes
  • 1 1/2 t. Worcestershire sauce
  • Cut the rolls in half without breaking them apart.
  • Put a layer of ham and cheese on the bottom part of the rolls still left in the pan.  Put the top back on. 
  • Mix the margarine, poppy seeds, mustard, onion flakes, and Worcestershire sauce together. 
  • Pour the mixture over the rolls.
  • Refrigerate overnight or at least two to three hours.
  • Bake at 350 degrees for 20 minutes.
Rollo Pretzel Bites

Y'all.  If you have not tried these, you have to make them soon.  I wrote about them here, and have loved them ever since!
  • Rollos
  • Square Pretzels
  • Cover a cookie sheet with parchment paper. 
  • Place pretzel squares on the parchment paper.
  • Put one Rollo on top of each pretzel.
  • Warm in the oven just long enough for the Rollos to get just a little gooey.  
  •  Smush (that's a technical term, by the way) another pretzel on top of the Rollo.  Be gentle, though, or you'll have a smushed Rollo mess!
  • Put in cute bags to give as gifts.  Or put them in an airtight container and eat them all yourself.  That's what I did. ;)

Our Weekend

This weekend was very go-go-go for us!  Truthfully, I like weekends like this.  It's nice to relax sometimes, but I would rather be going and doing than sitting at home.   

Bradley's sister, Jessica, and our nephew, Colton, came home for a visit.  Aniston and Colton are the same age (Aniston is only 10 weeks older), so it's always fun for them to play together.  We went out to lunch at one of our favorite Mexican restaurants with Jessica, Colton, Mamaw Sandy, and Papaw Barry.  We always ask for mild salsa for Aniston when we eat there, and she absolutely LOVES it.  She used the chips mostly as a spoon for shoveling the salsa into her mouth. :)  After lunch we went to a nearby park to play.  The park also has a train and a carousel.  They had so much fun!


 The weather was BEAUTIFUL this weekend!  We wanted to spend as much time outdoors as possible, so we took Aniston to another park on Sunday.  Mamaw Louise and Papaw Coy joined us.  Aniston loves swinging and sliding.  The park also had ducks, and she had fun feeding them....and eating a little bit of the bread herself! :)

 I'm off work today because of Veterans Day.  We're playing and catching up on laundry this morning, then going to Aniston's well-check this afternoon.  I'm so thankful for all the men and women who have served or are currently serving in the military!  I'm also thankful for an extra day off to spend with the princess!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012


So I'm behind.


BUT in the interest of preserving memories with the princess, I'll gladly post about Halloween today...even if it was almost a week ago!

The princess was a ladybug. 

She was pretty stinkin' cute, in my opinion.  I may be biased though.  Look at that fluffy little hiney!  The fluff was proabably my favorite thing about the costume.  It made her look like she was waddling!

When we asked, "What does a ladybug do?" she would flap her arms.

She was crazy about the candy. (And the leaves outside.)  At first, she didn't quite understand trick-or-treating, but she caught on quickly!  She had the best time.

I'm such a lucky mama.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Lazy 5

Last Saturday, we took Aniston to the Lazy 5 Ranch, an animal park.  It's such a fun place! Most of the animals are free roaming and it's very hands-on.  We met some friends there, and we all had a great time!

Lazy 5 is a drive-through park.  You can either take your car or take a horse drawn wagon ride.  We opted for the wagon because, 1) the person driving the wagon tells you about the animals, 2) you can feed the animals easily, and 3) who in their right mind would take their car and feed animals from it?! We saw zebras, giraffes, a rhinoceros, llamas, camels, and lots of different kinds of cattle, deer, and elk.  I didn't get many pictures.  We were too busy having fun!  Bradley forgot to bring the right lens for the camera, so the pictures I do have were taken with my iPhone. 

 After the wagon ride, we went to the petting zoo.  Aniston loved feeding the goats, sheep, camels, and llamas! 

She was amazed by the kangaroos, and she's shown everyone this week how a kangaroo hops.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Friday Confessions on Saturday...Again

I confess.... know the phrase, "A day late and a dollar short"?  That's the story of my life these days.

...Aniston's sleep habits have been HORRIBLE this week.  Bedtime has been a fight, and she's been waking up in the middle of the night crying.  Maybe she's teething?

 ...on Friday, Aniston and I watched Barney at 3 AM.  That was the only thing that satisfied her. 

...watching Barney during the day is pretty bad, but at 3 in the morning, it's a miserable experience.  Waaay too much skipping and singing.

...I said maybe she's teething because I really don't know.  I'm currently refusing to put my hand in her mouth to check for teeth anymore.  She bites.  And it hurts.

...the only app that rivals Song Pop in addictiveness is Fruit Ninja.  Try it.

...when I typed Try it, I automatically sang, "You'll like it!" in my mind.  Thanks for that, Yo Gabba Gabba.