Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day

For several years, Mother's Day was a difficult day for me.  I spent that day every year wondering if I would ever have a baby and mourning the loss of our first.  It was a miserable time, and, even though I wanted to celebrate my own mom, it was hard.

So today (and every other day, because it's never far from my mind), I have to acknowledge how blessed I am.  I am so, so grateful for the precious four year old who said, "Happy Mother's Day!" constantly today and, like always, was quick to tell me how much she loved me.  I'm grateful for my sweet B, who made sure today was special...and stopped for banana ice cream even though I'm pretty sure he didn't really want to.  And, of course, I'm grateful for the little girl who is thumping around in my belly...and whose presence was the cause of her daddy actually stopping for said banana ice cream. :)  I'm thankful for an amazing mama and mother-in-law who have shown me so much love over the years.

My day was absolutely wonderful.  We heard a great sermon this morning, went to lunch at one of my favorite restaurants with my parents, took a nap, and then spent the rest of the afternoon and evening outside.  It was a beautiful, perfect Mother's Day!

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Baby #2: 20 Weeks

Today, I am twenty weeks pregnant with our second baby.  It's so hard to believe that we're halfway (or over halfway, more than likely) through this pregnancy. 

I found this online this morning and laughed because it is most definitely not how we feel. 
The room that will be Harper's is still serving as Aniston's playroom, and is filled to the brim.  We have no idea where everything is going to go.  (I'm cringing a little as I type because I know that's such a first world problem and sounds so ridiculous when I say it out loud.  We have no room for this baby because our first child has too much stuff.)  The room is also a dark blue so after the toys are finally moved to who-knows-where, it will need approximately 57 coats of primer before being painted.  The crib needs to be reassembled, furniture needs to be moved, and the closet needs to be cleaned out since we've been using it for storage for paper-type stuff (documents, cards, gift bags, and such) since we built the house. 

It's going to be a fun summer for B, no doubt. :)

As long and daunting as the to-do list can be at times, it's also fun and exciting.  I'm thrilled to be preparing for another baby.

Pregnancy-wise, everything is going really well so far.  My blood pressure has been low, and we're praying that it stays that way.  Since I'm at high risk for developing preeclampsia again, I've been taking low-dose aspirin since twelve weeks in hopes of preventing it.  (Research shows it decreases the risk by twenty-four percent, and my doctor thinks it's worth a shot.)  The nausea from the first trimester has been replaced by heartburn, but it's manageable and I'll take it over feeling sick all the time any day.  I'm tired a lot, but that's to be expected.  I'm not nearly as worried and stressed as I was when I was pregnant with Aniston, and I'm really enjoying it this time.  Harper seems to be getting stronger by the day and is moving pretty consistently.  Today was an especially active day, and I felt her move from the outside for the first time.  Such an amazing feeling!

20 weeks

Friday, May 1, 2015

Baby #2: Anatomy Scan

Before we found out we were expecting this baby, I often thought about having a second child...even though we regularly said we were fine with just one.  Truthfully, I couldn't decide how I felt.  Would I be able to love another child as much as I love Aniston?  What if we had to go back to REACH--could we put ourselves through that again?  I even went as far as to wonder how I would feel if we didn't have to go to REACH.  If the second baby didn't require so many tears and so much heartache, would I feel that he or she was as special as Aniston?

I had mulled over these thoughts for a long time.  Then, on a random Thursday in January, a miracle I never expected showed up in the form of a pink line and, suddenly, I had my answers.

Yes, I could love another child just as much--even from the moment I knew she existed.  My heart immediately grew, and has continued to do so as I've fallen more in love with this baby by the day.  Part of what makes Aniston so special is how hard we fought to have her.  Part of what makes this baby so special is how easy and unexpected she was. Two complete opposites, but two complete blessings.

On Tuesday we learned that the newest member of our family is another little girl.  We're excited, and so very thankful that she is healthy.  The anatomy scan went well, and she measured perfectly--and one week ahead.  She has long legs and big feet...just like her big sister.  She constantly wiggles, and I'm able to feel her much more than I felt Aniston at this point.  We were able to get a picture of her sweet profile (something Aniston never cooperated for) and still can't believe how blessed we are.

Just like with Aniston, I wanted to choose names before we found out the gender.  B didn't understand the rush, but humored me and we had names ready before the appointment.  Our littlest girl is Harper Shea, and we can't wait to meet her in September.

Look at that little hand resting on her chest! 

 We had a gender reveal on Tuesday night with family and close friends.  So much fun!