Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Nine Years

Dear B,

Nine years ago, on a rainy Saturday in July, I married you with this verse in my heart.  As I said my vows to you that day, I thought there was no way I could love you more or be happier than I was in that moment.  

I wish I could go back to that twenty-two year old girl and whisper in her ear, Oh, if you only knew!

Life with you just keeps getting better and better, and I can't wait to see what this year holds for us.

I love you!

Friday, July 24, 2015

Five on Friday

Aside from Wednesday, this week absolutely flew by.  I was shocked when I looked at the calendar earlier in the week and realized that next week is the last week in July.  Where is the summer going?!

1| This Print
The print above has been on my Etsy wish list forever.  If I thought I had the right place for it in my house, it would have been mine a long time ago.

2| Mixed Feelings
My feelings about summer are a little mixed this year.  I usually want summer to last forever, and that's still true, but I'm also really looking forward to September and Harper.  It's a strange place to be.

3| School
Aniston and I went to work in my classroom two days this week, and B went with me once to move furniture.  I usually don't go back this early, but I'm trying to make the most of these (kind of) comfortable days while they last.  The more I do now, the less I have to do later.  Since I'm moving grade levels and classrooms, there's more to do this year than there usually is.  I'm chipping away at it slowly and being careful not to do too much at once.

4| Nursery Progress
Harper's nursery is coming along slowly but surely.  B (finally) put the crib together this week, I've made decisions about colors, and the bedding has been purchased.  Now, if we can just get Aniston to stop moving her things back into the room...

5| This Happened
 Blurry, but you get the idea.

Henry the guinea pig (my class pet) escaped while B was cleaning his cage.  Luckily, the schnauzers weren't aware of what was going on or it would have been much, much worse.  (Also, please note that if you need pixie dust or the missing wing to Princess Sofia's horse, Minimus, you can find those on the bottom shelf in our dining room. :-P)

I'm linking up with April and Amy today.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

One Day

Today has been a frustrating day.

The laundry situation in this house is out of control.  There's stuff we moved out of Harper's room that still doesn't have a permanent home.  There are boxes that need to go to the basement, and boxes of baby stuff that need to be carried up from the basement.  And there are toys everywhere.  I've spent most of the day trying to clean and organize, but while I'm in one room, a mess is being made in another by a certain little someone.

It's enough to drive a person crazy.

I was SO frustrated this afternoon, and found myself fussing, lecturing, and just not being the parent I want to be.  I turned on Disney Jr. and retreated to my bedroom for a five minute mommy time out.  As I sat on the edge of the bed and thought about the day, I realized a few things.

One day, toys won't be scattered from one end of our house to the other.
One day, instead of her begging me to play, I'll be begging her to do something with me.
One day, she won't say "Mama," a hundred times a day to get my attention.
One day, the house will stay clean, the laundry will be caught up, and everything will be quiet--no constant talking and singing, no little feet running through the house, no giggling.

And on that day, instead of crying in frustration like I did today, I'll cry because of all the moments and days that slipped by so quickly, lost in the busyness of daily life.

I will never get today back.  Tomorrow Aniston will be one day older, one day closer to growing up, one day closer to not needing me for so many things.  I can try my best to make tomorrow better by not getting as frustrated and by having more patience and grace, but today?  Today is gone.  A wasted day in exchange for what?  Fussing about toys and feeling overwhelmed by all that needs to be done?  In the grand scheme of things, what does it matter if my living room is littered with letter tiles, stuffed animals, and baby dolls?  Will Aniston remember the days our house was in perfect order, or will she remember my words and (I'm so ashamed to admit this) sometimes my harshness?  Will she remember the days all the laundry was put away, or will she remember the times I stopped what I was doing to play with her?

There will always be dishes to wash, laundry to do, dinner to cook, and so on...the necessary parts of daily life certainly can't stop.  But they can slow down.  That's what I realized today, and what I intend to do tomorrow--slow down and take time to really think about what's the most important thing in that moment.  Life is busy, and the pressure is often overwhelming, but in the end, what matters most?

Here's to slowing down and remembering that the little things are really the big things.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Our Weekend: A Quick Post

It's Tuesday night already and I haven't had time to write a post about our weekend, but I'm trying to do better about blogging just for the sake of remembering things.  So, here's a quick rundown of what's been going on here lately.

-After dinner on Friday, we made a quick trip to Sam's to pick up a few things.  Aniston tried a sample of gummy bears, fell in love with them, and somehow managed to convince her daddy to buy a bag.  A six pound bag.  Granted, they're the Black Forest kind, so they're made with real fruit juice, but still.  I love Sam's for some things, but others?  Not so much. 

-On Saturday morning, we had breakfast at Chick-fil-a, then B watched Aniston play in the play area while I ran to Walmart next door to grab the rest of the things on our grocery list.  This may have been the best decision ever, and I think every mama should try it. 

-It rained on Saturday afternoon.  Aniston made the most of it by turning her Cozy Coupe into a plane and giving Ethel the honor of being her copilot.  Poor Ethel.

-If you think Ethel looks a little odd in the picture,'s because she does.  She got something sticky in her beard and it turned into a huge mess and had to be clipped really close.  Being without a beard is not a very flattering look for a schnauzer. Bless her heart.

-After church on Sunday, we went to a party to celebrate Papaw Burl's 90th birthday.  We are so blessed to have these two wonderful people in our lives!  

-We ended the weekend with a cookout and swimming at B's parents' on Sunday night.  It was a fun way to spend time together before another busy week!

Saturday, July 18, 2015

30 Weeks

At 30 weeks, we're in the final stretch of this pregnancy.  It's hard to believe that in a little over two months, we'll be bringing another baby home!  Honestly, I feel a bit overwhelmed when I think about it (and how many things need to be done before she arrives), but I'm so excited and thankful.  There were lots of times I begged God for just one baby, and I remember those times and that feeling of desperation so well.  Now we're close to having our second baby, and that's something we never even dared to hope for during all those trips to REACH and years of fertility treatments.  It's such a surreal feeling. 

Things are going well.  I'm still measuring a week ahead, and Harper's heart rate has been in the normal range at every appointment.  I failed the one hour glucose test at my 28 week appointment, and that was kind of a surprise for both me and my doctor since I didn't have gestational diabetes with Aniston.  Reluctantly (and tearfully), I went back for the three hour test last week.  It was not fun (although Harper seemed to enjoy the extra sugar) and those three hours were possibly the longest of my life, but I made it.  Thankfully, the results were within normal limits, so no worries there.

I'm feeling great, but big and tired.  (I know--that's only going to get worse.)  My blood pressure has been fantastic, and I've only had issues with swelling when I'm on my feet for a long time.  Being off this summer has helped a lot, and, right now, I don't have any of the problems I had with Aniston at this point.  We're all aware that this could change as soon as I go back to work in August, and I'm still being monitored closely, but we'll deal with that if/when the time comes.

Harper is definitely a mover!  She moves constantly throughout the day, but does an especially fabulous gymnastics routine first thing in the morning--usually around 6:30 or 7.  I wasn't able to feel Aniston move nearly this much because of an anterior placenta, so feeling Harper has been different and fun.  She makes a point of kicking hard when Aniston sits on my lap and leans against my belly, and Aniston thinks that's hilarious. 

We've scheduled the c-section, and somehow that makes things even more real.  If all goes as planned, we'll be meeting Harper on September 21!  :)

We're praying for a healthy, safe final nine weeks!

Friday, July 17, 2015

Five on Friday

1| Date Night
B and I were able to have an impromptu date night on Tuesday...and it was wonderful! I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for Wednesday morning (more on that tomorrow) and the great grands were planning to keep Aniston.  Since it was a morning appointment, they decided a sleepover was in order. (I'm pretty sure they love sleepovers more than Aniston. :))  After we dropped her off, we headed to Wild Wok for a yummy dinner.  We had such a good time, just the two of us.  As much as we love having Aniston with us, it's nice to have some time to reconnect every now and then. 

2| Preschool 
Aniston will start preschool in the fall, and I ordered her book bag this week.  (Monogrammed, of course, because how can a girl start preschool without a monogrammed book bag?!)  I can't believe we're at this point in life.  Where did my baby go?!  And when I think of her starting kindergarten next year?  No.

3| Back to School Sales
The back to school sales have started already.  While the smell of crayons and the freshness of new notebooks make my teacher heart happy, it also makes my heart feel a little fluttery.  When I see the ads, I can't help but remember the state of my classroom (er...classrooms at this point because my old room still isn't completely empty) and the disastrous mess waiting for me.  Shudder.

4| And Speaking of Sales...
Was anyone else hugely disappointed in Amazon's Prime Day and the Black Friday in July sales?  I couldn't find anything I couldn't live without, which was probably a good thing, but still.  Super disappointing after all the hype.

5| Blog Name
I've realized that, come September, this blog name isn't going to work anymore.  I've changed it several times over the years to fit whatever stage of life we've been in at the time, and now it's time for another change.  This time, I want to find something that will last through whatever changes or future additions (kidding, B, kidding...kind of) may come to our family.  Thoughts?  Suggestions?

And that's it for today, friends!  Have a great weekend, and check back tomorrow for a 30 weeks post!  (Eeek!)

I'm linking up with April and Amy today.


Monday, July 13, 2015

Our Weekend: Shopping, Swimming, and a Party

I'm pretty sure I look forward to the weekend just as much in the summer as I do any other time of the year.  I don't work during the summer, but B does, and I look forward to having us all here on the weekends.  (And, I admit, I also look forward to having two full days with two parents.  Aniston always has a TON of energy, and my energy is waning fast these days.  Ha!)

We had a quiet night here on Friday.  We grilled hamburgers, and then watched Aniston play after dinner.  We're trying to 'unplug' more, and it was so nice to be able to concentrate on her and each other without someone having a phone, iPad, or laptop in hand.  Honestly, we need to do that all the time, but it's such a temptation to check facebook, instagram, or email often.  We're trying, though!

On Saturday, I went shopping for some things for Harper's nursery and my mom tagged along.  Usually, when we go shopping, Aniston goes with us, but that day she opted to go with B on a daddy-daughter date instead.  The two of them had a great time, and I got to spend some time with my mom.  Win-win, I think.  We visited several stores and found some cute things and then went to lunch.  We enjoyed our time together, and I came home feeling much more prepared for Harper.

One of our church campuses has a Saturday service, and B was part of the worship team there on Saturday night, so Aniston and I were on our own.  We went to a cousin's birthday party.  Abigail had a luau-themed fifth birthday party, and it was lots of fun.  Aniston LOVED playing in the lake!

After church on Sunday, we had a quick lunch at home and then went swimming at B's parents'. That evening, B washed my car while I watched Aniston ride her bike on the driveway.  (So, so thankful I'm married to a man who washes my car without me even having to ask.  That could be because I chose to buy a black car this time, and he's afraid I'll scratch the paint somehow, but whatever.  I'm just grateful!)
It was a nice evening to end a great weekend!

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Our Weekend: Fourth of July


We had a great weekend celebrating the Fourth!

B's mom's birthday is July 4, so we started our day by going out to breakfast with his parents.  Aniston was upset when she found out we weren't going to Bojangles (typical reaction for her--the girl loves Bojangles), but she quickly changed her tune when she realized pancakes, eggs, and sausage were involved. 

That night, we had a cookout with friends like we have the last several years.  It was a fun time filled with laughter, yummy food, and fireworks. Fireworks have never bothered Aniston before, but she didn't care for them at all this year.  She held her ears before they even started, and then insisted that I hold her ears.  She had the best time talking and singing because she thought her voice sounded funny since her ears were covered.

Sunday was filled with church, lunch with family, and doing some online shopping for Harper's nursery. Last week marked the beginning of the third trimester, and I'm eager to get her room finished.  

Wednesday, July 1, 2015


I have lost the ability to sleep past 3:30am.

At first, I thought it was because Aniston has had several restless nights recently.  Each time, I couldn't fall asleep again after I got her settled. 

This morning, though, I realized that wasn't really the problem.  I'm the problem.

I have an eerie feeling that this may just be the way things go until September (which makes me so, so sad because I'm wasting nights when I could sleep and I know the sleepless nights of having a newborn are just around the corner).

I like to sleep.  I need sleep.  I'm not a person who can stay up all night, or survive on just a few hours.  I never have been.   

I force myself to stay in bed until 5:00, because 5:00 at least seems like a more reasonable time to get up (even though it's not because, hello?, summer).  When all hope of sleep is really lost, I get up and try to be as quiet as possible because the only thing worse than being awake at 5:00 in the summer is having your four-year-old who never naps awake with you.  (I don't have to worry about B, though, because every bit of light sleeper tendencies in him vanished the night Aniston was born.  He was suddenly blessed with the ability to sleep through anything.)

I would like to tell you that all these early mornings have resulted in very productive days, but that's a lie.  All they've done is allow me a little more time on Pinterest which, in turn, makes me feel like I could really make the recipe that has fifteen steps (even though I hate cooking) or have an immaculate house (even though it's summer and Aniston and I are here all the time and there's just no way) or become so organized that everything around here runs like a well-oiled machine (ha).

(Sometimes I wish I could go back to a Pinterest-free world.  It was a simpler time.)

Being awake so early also gives me plenty of time to think about all the things I need to do, and to make lists.  You wouldn't believe the number of lists I have going right now. 

Not that I have the energy to do anything on said lists...because I've been awake since 3:30, and that makes for an insanely long, tiring day.  I'm hoping and praying--and I never thought I'd pray about sleep--that things go back to normal soon!