Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Sleepless

I have lost the ability to sleep past 3:30am.

At first, I thought it was because Aniston has had several restless nights recently.  Each time, I couldn't fall asleep again after I got her settled. 

This morning, though, I realized that wasn't really the problem.  I'm the problem.

I have an eerie feeling that this may just be the way things go until September (which makes me so, so sad because I'm wasting nights when I could sleep and I know the sleepless nights of having a newborn are just around the corner).

I like to sleep.  I need sleep.  I'm not a person who can stay up all night, or survive on just a few hours.  I never have been.   

I force myself to stay in bed until 5:00, because 5:00 at least seems like a more reasonable time to get up (even though it's not because, hello?, summer).  When all hope of sleep is really lost, I get up and try to be as quiet as possible because the only thing worse than being awake at 5:00 in the summer is having your four-year-old who never naps awake with you.  (I don't have to worry about B, though, because every bit of light sleeper tendencies in him vanished the night Aniston was born.  He was suddenly blessed with the ability to sleep through anything.)

I would like to tell you that all these early mornings have resulted in very productive days, but that's a lie.  All they've done is allow me a little more time on Pinterest which, in turn, makes me feel like I could really make the recipe that has fifteen steps (even though I hate cooking) or have an immaculate house (even though it's summer and Aniston and I are here all the time and there's just no way) or become so organized that everything around here runs like a well-oiled machine (ha).

(Sometimes I wish I could go back to a Pinterest-free world.  It was a simpler time.)

Being awake so early also gives me plenty of time to think about all the things I need to do, and to make lists.  You wouldn't believe the number of lists I have going right now. 

Not that I have the energy to do anything on said lists...because I've been awake since 3:30, and that makes for an insanely long, tiring day.  I'm hoping and praying--and I never thought I'd pray about sleep--that things go back to normal soon!

Monday, June 29, 2015

Carowinds, Nursery, and Such {Our Weekend}

B took Thursday and Friday off, so it was a nice, long weekend for us. 

We took Aniston to Carowinds on Thursday.  We had a great time, but it was SO HOT.  We knew it was going to be because the little "heat wave" banner was stretched across the weekly forecast, but did we let that stop us?  Nope, not a chance.  Along with thousands of other crazy people, we forged ahead with our plans and went.  The kids' part of the park has a lot of shade, so that helped, but it was still pretty uncomfortable.  We saw lots of kids having meltdowns, but Aniston was wonderful.  No whining or complaining at all, and that's saying something given how hot and humid it was.  I was so proud of her!  When I told B that, he said he was just proud of me for not whining or complaining.  Ha! 



Friday was dedicated to cleaning out and organizing all the things in what will be Harper's room.  We've used that room as kind of a catch-all since we moved into the house.  For the last few years, it has served as a playroom for Aniston, and we've used the closet for extra storage for things like documents, gift bags, extra luggage, and so on.  It was a JOB, and, sadly, it still isn't finished.  We're moving lots of toys to Aniston's playhouse and room, but we've realized that we're going to have to finish part of the basement to make a play area for the girls.  There's just too much stuff, and lots of the toys are big.  (We're not tackling that right now, though--we have a nursery to paint, furnish, and decorate, and I have a classroom that needs to be painted and organized before August.  One step at a time!)

We took a break from working on the room to go to lunch at a Mexican restaurant B wanted me to try.  (He'd been there once before with friends.)  It was delicious, and a nice reprieve from all the organizing.  When the waitress brought the check and asked if we needed anything else, Aniston surprised us by quickly saying, "I need a box, please, ma'am!"  She's growing up so fast!

(At 5:00 on Friday evening, B announced that he now completely understands why I'm a little crazy by the time he gets home from work on summer days.  Aniston goes non-stop from the moment she wakes up until she closes her eyes at night.)

We spent more time on Saturday working on Harper's room. (Did I mention it's still not finished?  Sigh.) We took Aniston to a local Fourth of July celebration that night to hear a live band and watch a fireworks show.  I wish I had snapped a picture of her face when she saw the fireworks--she was absolutely in awe!  She's not a big fan of loud noises, though, so the awe was short-lived and was quickly replaced by demands to leave.  Bless her.  :)

Sunday was filled with church and lots of relaxing downtime--the perfect ending to a fabulous weekend!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

A Father's Day Letter

Dear B,

I never knew how much I loved you until I saw how much you love Aniston.  I realize that's a bit of a cliché, but it's true.  Even though I knew without a shadow of a doubt how much you would love our children, seeing your love every day is so much greater than I ever imagined. 

In Aniston's eyes, you are everything.  And so you should be--you're her daddy, and daddies are so very special, especially to little girls.  She thinks you're the best daddy in the world, and my heart feels so full every time she announces that to anyone who will listen.  She believes you can fix anything, and she's sure you know all the answers.  She looks to you for those fixes, those answers, and she'll continue to for the rest of her life.  I know that because, even now, I still look to my daddy for the same things.

You have such an important role in her life.  As much as I know it hurts your heart to even think about it, one day she'll be grown.  She will think about the characteristics she wants in a husband, and, all the while, she'll be thinking about you.  You will be the man every other is measured against.  She's watching you now, and she'll continue to as she grows up.  She's watching the way you love me, the way you love our family, the values and morals you have, your faith, and so much more.  It's all being filed away for later, and even the moments you think are insignificant will have an impact on who she is. 

The single most important thing you're doing--and will continue to do--in her life is to point her to Christ.  I'm so thankful she's growing up seeing you as the spiritual leader of our home.  I'm thankful that you're investing so much time with her in prayer and Bible study.  She loves that time of her day, and I love watching it. 

I am so proud of the daddy you are, B.  You are nothing short of amazing.  Aniston is so blessed to have you in her life...and Harper will be, too.  And me?  I'm blessed to be a part of it all.  I could not ask for a better person to have by my side as we share life and raise our family. 

Happy Father's Day!

Friday, June 19, 2015

Friday Five

1| Another Year in the Books
We wrapped up another school year last Tuesday.  I've had nine classes of second graders in my career.  Students from my first class are now licensed drivers, which is kind of hard to believe since I don't feel a day older than when I met them at my classroom door on my very first day.  How is it possible that they're getting older and I'm staying the same?!

2| Big Changes Ahead
After nine wonderful years in second grade, I learned on Wednesday that I would be moving to third grade in August.  I'm excited for the change, and looking forward to the challenge of a new grade level.  What I'm not looking forward to is moving nine years worth of stuff!  I tried to move as much as possible on the teacher workdays, but there's so much more to move.  I'm planning to chip away at it slowly over the summer so I won't have so much to do in August when I return to school at 34 weeks pregnant (!).

3| OB Appointment
My 24 week OB appointment was last Thursday.  It took a long time for the doctor to get a heart rate because our littlest girl is such a mover.  As soon as she picked up the heart beat with the doppler, Harper would move or kick hard enough to cause the doppler to make a very loud popping sound.  The doctor laughed and said if that was any indication of Harper's personality, we were going to have our hands full with this one.  Her heart rate was in the high 150s, and I measured right on track.  We're thankful for a healthy, moving baby and the peace of mind we've had with this pregnancy.

4| Summer Break
This was the first week of summer break, and it was WONDERFUL.  I love teaching, but I love having the summer to spend with Aniston, too.  Just like every year, though, it has been a bit of an adjustment for her.  Every morning she asks, "Who's picking me up today?  Papaw or Papa?" and then fusses when I tell her she's staying home with me.  (Huge mommy confidence booster, right?  Ha!) 

5| Shopping and Sweet Frog
Aniston and I spent yesterday getting things ready for Father's Day.  We had lunch at Chick-fil-a and then did some shopping.  (If she makes it to Sunday without telling him what we bought, I'll be very, very surprised.)  We had the best time, and ended the day with Sweet Frog.

  

Have a  great weekend, y'all!




Tuesday, June 2, 2015

May

How in the world is it already June?!  Time is flying.

I haven't been doing a very good job of keeping up with the blog lately.  I always have good intentions, but I never seem to find the time--especially when we're in the middle of the last full week of school and things are crazy and I'm so tired all the time.  But I do like blogging for the sake of remembering things years from now, so here are a few quick things about life in May:

-The week after Mother's Day, Aniston came down with some sort of weird virus. She didn't have any symptoms other than a fever that hovered around 101-102 degrees and would spike to 104 at times.  Her pediatrician said she looked fine and couldn't figure out exactly what was wrong.  Naturally, being pregnant, I panicked a bit about whatever the baby was being exposed to, but was assured that it wasn't a big deal.  It was a long, difficult week and definitely made me appreciate how healthy she normally is.

-I had an OB appointment on May 14.  Everything is going well, and our baby girl's heart rate was in the 150s. 

-Aniston had her four year old well check.  She weighs almost 32 pounds (50th percentile) and is 41 inches tall (70th percentile).  We're so blessed to have a healthy, happy little girl!

-The baby moves constantly now.  I love feeling her!  B and Aniston were both able to feel her kick once.  Aniston was so amazed, and said, "What is she doing in there?!"  It was so funny, and such a fun memory to have with her.

May was a busy month for us.  We were constantly on the go, and always had somewhere to be or something to do.  I'm hoping that summer will bring a slower, easier pace!

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day

For several years, Mother's Day was a difficult day for me.  I spent that day every year wondering if I would ever have a baby and mourning the loss of our first.  It was a miserable time, and, even though I wanted to celebrate my own mom, it was hard.

So today (and every other day, because it's never far from my mind), I have to acknowledge how blessed I am.  I am so, so grateful for the precious four year old who said, "Happy Mother's Day!" constantly today and, like always, was quick to tell me how much she loved me.  I'm grateful for my sweet B, who made sure today was special...and stopped for banana ice cream even though I'm pretty sure he didn't really want to.  And, of course, I'm grateful for the little girl who is thumping around in my belly...and whose presence was the cause of her daddy actually stopping for said banana ice cream. :)  I'm thankful for an amazing mama and mother-in-law who have shown me so much love over the years.

My day was absolutely wonderful.  We heard a great sermon this morning, went to lunch at one of my favorite restaurants with my parents, took a nap, and then spent the rest of the afternoon and evening outside.  It was a beautiful, perfect Mother's Day!

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Baby #2: 20 Weeks

Today, I am twenty weeks pregnant with our second baby.  It's so hard to believe that we're halfway (or over halfway, more than likely) through this pregnancy. 

I found this online this morning and laughed because it is most definitely not how we feel. 
The room that will be Harper's is still serving as Aniston's playroom, and is filled to the brim.  We have no idea where everything is going to go.  (I'm cringing a little as I type because I know that's such a first world problem and sounds so ridiculous when I say it out loud.  We have no room for this baby because our first child has too much stuff.)  The room is also a dark blue so after the toys are finally moved to who-knows-where, it will need approximately 57 coats of primer before being painted.  The crib needs to be reassembled, furniture needs to be moved, and the closet needs to be cleaned out since we've been using it for storage for paper-type stuff (documents, cards, gift bags, and such) since we built the house. 

It's going to be a fun summer for B, no doubt. :)

As long and daunting as the to-do list can be at times, it's also fun and exciting.  I'm thrilled to be preparing for another baby.

Pregnancy-wise, everything is going really well so far.  My blood pressure has been low, and we're praying that it stays that way.  Since I'm at high risk for developing preeclampsia again, I've been taking low-dose aspirin since twelve weeks in hopes of preventing it.  (Research shows it decreases the risk by twenty-four percent, and my doctor thinks it's worth a shot.)  The nausea from the first trimester has been replaced by heartburn, but it's manageable and I'll take it over feeling sick all the time any day.  I'm tired a lot, but that's to be expected.  I'm not nearly as worried and stressed as I was when I was pregnant with Aniston, and I'm really enjoying it this time.  Harper seems to be getting stronger by the day and is moving pretty consistently.  Today was an especially active day, and I felt her move from the outside for the first time.  Such an amazing feeling!


20 weeks